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Friday, June 3, 2022

Reminded by Portugal 3 Denmark 2, Group Stage, Euro 2012 (Revised 6-3-22)

 

Reminded by Portugal 3 Denmark 2, Group Stage, Euro 2012 (Revised 6-3-22)

 

You get used to things
And
In so doing

Assume

Some things
Must be

And can’t be changed, that to even try would guarantee failure & looking foolish for it.

June 2002
I’d become used to

Toilets full of blood I couldn’t explain

Nights bereft of memory

A life of neither hope nor direction

Mornings of “Whose blood is that?”

And

“Do I have any friends left?”

And when my drinking failed to kill my unnamed hurt
I hoped it would kill me

But it failed to do that.

I assumed that there was no other way
No possibility of my sobriety

But I had no other ideas left to try.

So I spent several insomniac nights
Channel-flipping
Chain smoking minutes
My drying blood turning liquid once more

Cop Shows
Sit Coms
Politics
Reruns
Infomercials

The 2AM Litany of Loathing

The background noise of a certainty that this was doomed to fail
I was sure to die of drink.

Cop Shows
Sit Coms
Politics
Reruns
Infomercials

Why bother drying up? Dammit it’s too late to buy whiskey…

Cop Shows
Sit Coms
Politics
Reruns
Infomercials

Soccer.

Stupid drunk: you forgot the World Cup was starting. Is this a repeat? No, it’s in Asia! It’s live at 2AM! Hope?

USA! Vs

Portugal.

We’re fucked. Portugal are tipped by some to win it all.
We’re going to lose, and I’m going to die drunk.

But USA won

3-2

I accepted the challenge,

The gauntlet thrown by our National Team doing what was assumed they couldn’t possibly have done,

And I have done for myself
What I assumed I couldn’t possibly have done,

And have done it now for 10  20 years.


Chris Walters, June 2012  2022

 

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

An Illustration of the Privilege



An Illustration of the Privilege

The day, grey
And wet,
I, in oilskin, hood,
ball cap, backpack
all black,
waited
for a walk signal.

A family, some friends,
And an old woman waited as well,
all of us
white.

Polite nods from all
but old white woman,
who strained out a smile
with slightly widened eyes.

I realized how closely
My attire resembled
A wanted poster
for the then recent
Boston Bombings.

I forgave her reaction.

Then a man arrived,
30ish, fit,
Clean casual clothes,
A young professional
Off work,
Out to relax.

Old woman turned to greet him
But gave the same face as to me,
And also gripped purse tight
And moved it in front of herself
While turning away.

He noticed.

“Oh sure, a black man arrives and it’s ‘hide the valuables!’ What the hell!?” 
He stormed off in anger, no longer waiting for the light’s permission.

Chris Walters
2016

Monday, August 1, 2016

Ride 7-30-16



Two weeks ago I decided to explore Great Bog Wildlife Management Areas in Portsmouth. I’d ridden by it when following the old railroad tracks between 33 and Banfield, many times in the past, once even venturing onto the paths, but not in 2 years. I’d also never recorded my trip with Map My Ride.

The first time there it had been a redneck party area, with shotgun shells, beer cans, and shot-up stereo speakers littering the place. No longer. This time I saw some remnants from past parties, but nothing new. I also found the litter of several apparent homeless camps in one area.

I got the idea that this was the most secluded place in Portsmouth, a strange thought with it being bordered by 95 on one side. But it is large enough that a better word to describe it is ‘vast’. At 700+ acres.


It turns out that Great Bog is whole world, all removed from the small city within whose borders it can be found.

Two weeks ago I annoyed a Red Tailed Hawk. I know it was a Red Tailed Hawk by its cry, which it let rip rather freely, in apparent ire. Due to my typical American’s lack of knowledge about these things, I assumed the cry came from a Bald Eagle (thanks Stephen Colbert), but later research proved me wrong. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=77_oa_Cyw3g 
I tried to get a good GoPro video, but failed, and never saw it clearly enough to photograph. Alas. Turns out that there are 2 hawks, maybe more. I know this because on leaving the WMA 2 weeks ago I heard the screech again, looked up and saw 2 big ass birds circling above.

This time I intended to find the hawks and get video and pictures. I set GoPro for 1080p, charged up, and went. Spoiler: I failed to find the raptors in question.

Accepting the failure early in the ride I just explored. I rode along the grassy area where the high tension wires pass. A narrow path through knee high grass widened into an almost-road, which then drowned in the eponymous Bog.


I hate backtracking, so explored the possibility of crossing to dry land, either by walking BIKE alongside the water or riding straight through. The vegetation on either side forbade the former, and soft soil under the more than knee-deep water prevented the latter. So I backtracked.

There was a sign I’d seen for a path so I followed it.
About 100ft from that sign I found a second
that pointed towards this
I realized that I had come this way 2 years ago, but remembered no signs. In that time there’d been no trail maintenance, either. I wondered if the signs hadn’t been placed by some dickhead.

I continued on the path hidden and overgrown, and found a choice, straight
or turn right

I went straight, and found the path had been reclaimed by The Green:
Not wanting to upset Swamp Thing I went back to the turn and took it. It was somewhat rough, but passable.

About 400 feet from the turn I found someone’s abandoned campsite. 


Judging by the age of stuff I guessed it was maybe a year old. Apparently there aren’t a lot of cleanup events.

500ft further along the path I came to an abrupt transition.
On my side of the wall were deadfalls, rotting vegetation and the abandoned campsite, on the other a well-manicured forest. It was a relief to be able to ride for a bit with ease. 700 feet of trouble-free riding lead me back to the old railroad tracks. There was old tree that suffered greatly and died badly.

A short way down the tracks I found kind of a sinkhole where the edge of the path had fallen into swamp. It wasn’t there last time, so I photographed it. Later I noticed the contrast between purple flowers and all the green, both leaves and algae.

I hoped for a trail off the tracks to bypass the flooded path. There had been one, but it had also drowned.
Near this I found some discarded concrete slabs, I assumed left from railroad days.

Still determined to see the other end of the WMA I took Banfield to Ocean, then to Buckminster Way. I had seen on Google Maps what might have been another entrance to the Bog. I was right. 
I went in to the forest and found the entrance sign.
I was thrilled to be right, but sad that the WMA gets so little attention, especially compared to the properties of the York and Kittery Land Trusts.

At one point in the not too distant past a developer was going to make this path a road to enter a 20+ home development on an island in the Bog, that would have drained many acres of wetlands. Conservation efforts successfully ended that plan, resulting in the WMA, but haven’t culminated in much upkeep.

This day, though, I was happy to be alone to explore. There is a pond which I’m guessing is the local skating spot in winter, and summer swimming spot in braver and less ecologically aware times.

Near the pond is a small bridge that seems to be from colonial times. It’s old, regardless. It’s old enough to be covered in soil, with vines growing from the sides.

Through some more unkempt woods (though paths are still passable) I achieved my goal. Exiting the woods, I found this, looking North:

Nearby there were birdhouses on the utility poles.

It was very easy riding again, and I quickly got to the highest point in the WMA. There I found a foundation.

Near the foundation were some apple trees making wonder if there hadn’t been a farm house with an apple orchard.


Just the other side of the small hill I saw the other side of the first flooded path. Rather, I saw the other side of a huge expanse of cattails, suggesting that the path flooded in several places, so crossing the first flood would have mattered little. I got a much better understanding of the terrain from that vantage. I was even pleased with the shot too, until I saw the bug that photobombed it.  



I hoped to find a path in the North side woods that would let me circumvent the bog that way, but an hour’s looking turned up little but some old beer cans, and car parts. There’s more exploring to be done, but I needed to head back to the tracks, for my return trip. I went to the Southern woods, and hoped that Google Maps wasn’t wrong about what appeared to be, if not a path, then at least an easily forded stream.

In these woods I found some photo worthy stuff. A Big Ass Tree, broken off.
A maple bucket.
Also, an oyster shell.
There were shells and bottles scattered all over this area, but they didn’t photograph well.

Further exploration revealed what seemed to have been a railroad bed. Or a crater.





Walking along this revealed something that made the lack of maintenance to the WMA tragic: a shameful pile of trash.
I have since read that there’s a proposal to install boardwalks in the WMA, since they would have minimal ecological impact. That would make it easier to get rid of some of the crap.

Again looking for the way to the old tracks I moved on. I walked the wrong side of a fallen tree (actually visible on Google Earth), and began to sink quickly. If I moved quickly I would stay on top of the mud, but there was too much foliage to fight with, so I went back. Going the other way around the tree, I fought high grass, bamboo, and thorn bushes, but found what I sought: solid ground I could traverse. Hidden by the shrubbery I found it was a small archipelago, and some long gone local (presumably a partier) had added fallen tree bridges. I got to the last of these, and saw that the stream it crossed was just a little too wide to step over, but the bridge itself was too old to trust. I remembered the line in ‘Romancing the Stone’: “That’s not a bridge. It’s goddam pre-Columbian art”. Yup.



Stepping carefully on the Art I used a creative placement of BIKE wheels in the water and the opposite land, with the brakes holding us both in place, while I stepped over the gap. I was now looking at the bank of the old rail bed, and the tumbled remains of stairs, and of one more bridge. With comparatively little difficulty I achieved the objective, and got back on the old tracks.

I looked back at the small archipelago, then at various wounds on exposed flesh and lamented not carrying my machete.

So now I know there is more Portsmouth to explore. I intend to, post haste.